keyboard, guitar, jap, driving, blah blah blah.. neva ending things i wanna learn. well, i've learnt something, that is to prioritise wad u wanna do.. so what i wana do now.. is.. to LOSE weight! den slowly all the things will come in.. will go sign up to learn pilates.. always imagining myself few years down d road when i'm like in my late 20s doin yoga or pilates.. sip tea.. enjoying life! haaz. hopefully that dream will ever come true. ZzzZzz.. dun wake me up.. =]

hopefully by the age of 23 or so i already can play d keyboard, strum the guitar n prolly do alil on the drums.. i believe if u wanna do it, u can.. since many have learnt things based on self-taught.. rite?! mb wad i need now is perservance n determination.. put everything to wad u wanna do.. so when have i ever be soo serious in doin things? nt always but often.. i hope i'm able to put more heart into doin my stuffs. no more happy-go-lucky.. mb mb.. its time to be serious, if that's wad i wanna do.. who knows i can soon master my jap lang based on self taught.. ha, will try it some day.. wanna do gym, joggin n all.. so will i have the perservance to even step into d gym?! i tink i can huh.. i jz gotta believe, so rite now wad i'm writing is all for persuading myself into believing i can do it!

i'm just a selfish girl.. i dun like to share my stuffs. i'm weird.. i dun react to wad my heart tells me to do very often, i've got a bad attitude towards people / friends, i'm not that sporty that i've portrait, lazy, fickle, sings like shit, fat.. n d worst is i m NOT wad I think I am! wad else?! whr's d real me?! y am i not myself?! haiz.. gimme the time to find d real me.. can i, ever find me? can i ever react to wad my heart tells me so for once?! can i be wad i think i am for once?! *sighz* i'm lost.. find the real me~ i dun recognise the gal i see in the mirror anymore~

- do what you love, love what you do -

Skies are dark it's time for rain
Final call you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before
When baby, you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Ten to five at least we tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I never found you
How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Miles and miles to go before I can say,
Before I can lay my love for you to sleep
Oh, darling oh
I got miles and miles togo
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again

wow.... got a MC yest so stayed home n rest.. kept slping... though nw i'm back in da office. i'm feeling real tired! as in weak legs n all.. jz wished i can drop dead n start snoring n slp.. wadeva! jz let me cuddle up in my bed.. ha, i'm dreaming.. i stil got ard 4 more hours before goin home for a long wkend at home slping perhaps! *arghz* feel so weak nw.. like got wobbly legs.. eekz! wad a weakling i am! *sniffz*

nxt wk will be goin cycling at east coast..... woo! cant wait to get some exercise! n of cos.. my pay!!! (i'm soo broke.. help!)

ok, so now i'm bored with work at the mo'. i've got no callouts to do cos i did not wanna do e repeats again.. so nw i'm stuck with nuttin other den sorting, which is enuff to cast a spell on me to my dreamland.. oh well, who can i blame other den myself?! (yea, i'm jz plain lazy..) i'm stuck to my chair rite now that i cant move anywhr..

i wished i could start opening the book i have rite now n read it! *yawnz* haiz, i'm really lazy to the core man. i've got like so many words that i do not know n i din bother to go check it out.. wrote it somewhere but din check. also dinno whr i've put those scraps of paper.. so its like useless. n tis current book i'm reading (angela's ashes).. it has lotsa words tt i dun understand.. (a few words in a page.) makin it hard to read.. of cos mb i did exaggerate alil but i guess when it comes to reading.. u've gotta haf a dictionary beside unless ur eng's already got a standard! well, i'll definitely need a dictionary.. =(

watched the terminal yest n tot tom hanks a good actor! his acting is great. thr's a part whereby the indian cleaner was tryin to do d circus stunts of wad usu d monkey does.. juggling of the hoops n put it into the head, the juggling of plates n tryin to balance.. n d stunt whr he tried to turn d plates he has already managed to balance.. haha. tinkin of it nw stil wana make me luff! =Xx

rite now.. i jz wanna go home n slp.. *rub eyes* oOOOooO *yawnz* later's presentation.. hopefully its gonna turn out well!

finally its wkend! well, firstly.. i feeling really nt appreciated in the company.. both my colleague n me did so hard to increase the number of calls we made everyday yet my supervisor came n asked us wad went wrong? y were the numbers of uncalls more than d previous week.. well, i wenta check n realise d previous gal who worked b4 us had actually left a pile of uncalled records inside... making our uncalled very high.. dammit.. so unfair... but well, we'll gonna prove him wrong n that we did try v hard to decrease the number of uncalled! *hmphz*

ok, so i've been readin books about gals in middle east.. it really turns me off hw tings work over there.. somehow make me feel fortunate that i'm born in spore. the gals thr r like slaves to guys. they cant work, cant be rude to them.. only can have their meals after the guys.. eat at a diff room from them cos they are more superior. cannot go out without them being accompanied by a guy. cannot talk to strangers, r to do obey to their husbands sexual desires (otherwise u'll be a bad wife if u dont) n all... oh man! hw can u live in such a life like tis! its soo disturbing to know that such tings still exists in the modern era. n not only that, in jordon, if u're suspected to haf talked to a guy or being rape by someone or suspected to have lost ur virginity, the man of ur hse will kill them known as honour killing (n u're only be jailed fm 3mths - 2yrs, but usu 3mths n since if time taken for awaiting trial is 3mths, u can be released immediately! ) so as to cleanse their house.. eekz! its so frightening. wad rules r that man! r this actions shld be condemn!

yest was veritas 15th birthday so we had a celebration at the NUSS lounge. got balloons n all.. free food n birthday.. managed to get alil getaway at least for awhile.. away from all the workload..

sup came over to us n ask us to start calling more n to keep d no of uncalled companies to <100! wow.. stress.. cos d stacks of companies u needa call is woow! but i hope i can keep bucking up to reach to my own target too.. so at least i'll feel more satisfied towards myself..

i'm startin to plan to do things that i wanna learn again.. i'm tinkin of the intake to laselle sia for nxt year.. mb to study tings related to fashion merchandising or so.. mb can save up money n open shop! but hard la.. need lotsa resources.. but i'm quite interested.. so.. will take prolly this 1yr to start tinking wad i want.. to study. *too many on da list to choose from!*

n perhaps wanna start exercising again.. rite now.. rest n relax... at home!

wich 1 shld i take?! gimme suggestion! tinkin of d more rectangle 1..

well.. firstly its due to being able to see haizad again this thursday! its been selected n he's one of the guys in d wildcard! so happy for him.. hope he can prove himself this time! but well, it will be hard but at least he's given another opportunity to do himself some justice! haaz.. though i know his chances of gettin in will be slim.. but i'm gonna see him on tv! *yay*

nxt was that i've found out a short cut to walk to work whr my dad let me off over at the park royal plaza! its really quite near.. n now i do not needa walk so far away anymore.. *yay*

well.. been missing most frenz.. my sec sch frenz esp.. havin been out with them for long! meet up soon guyz.. i miss all of u! meanwhile, take care!

i wanna go shopping..... anyone who care to go out with me after 6pm during wkday pls feel free to let me know!

i hate it everyday at the start of work cos i'll needa start my 1st call every morning, when my throats dry.. n d way i talk.. its like as if i havent been talkin for a long time! but well, i'm employed to do such stuff rite... did have a meeting with my sup yest n we're told tt we're to handle wad full time staffs handle, will hafta do emails nxt time round too.. so well, okie dokie! no choice.. *yawnz* i always seemed tired when i'm in front of the computer.. ya, guess its back to calling!

finally got my pay today.. i'm so glad. i've bought a top durin lunch, now still considering if i shld get a skirt i saw at GG<5.. its nice but its those typical flare skirts tt'll make u really femininie.. *think* well.. all i can say is.. ITS SHOPPING TIME!


-life without love is like a tree without blossom or fruit-

vaja casing that's really nice but prices r outrageous! (US$70)

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

dint have a good slp during the weekends, keep waking up subsequently after 8am.. slpt ard 2 or 4+ yet when today i'm suppose to wake up.. i did not~ *sighz*

i'm done with harry potter! not gonna read it unless d new book's out! rite now currently reading a book i've borrowed from d library called "Sold" gonna have sth to keep me busy now.. other den work of cos.. been packing workplace the whole day.. got few cuts from the papers n d paper carton! dinno d carton's soo sharp. *ouch* gonna go back to that room again on wed *dread*, tomorrow's gonna do calling again~ time passed quite fast, its already d 3rd week at work.. so far so good jz hope things will go well within this 1 year. we've been invited to the company's D & D on Dec17 n they have this "glamourous" theme.. cool~ looking forward to that..

decided to get a ipod.. when my pay comes nxt mth.. really tempted.. somehow big storage is betta! i'll go get a very good casing to make up for d color of the ipod mini! hopefully i'm able to get it at end of this month! otherwise it'll be more waiting!

*it just fade away*

d difference of ipod n ipod mini.. a diff of <$100 n u get 20gb! but more bulky in a way.. wich 1 shld i get... =/

tempted to get 1!

addicted!

i'm addicted to reading books again.. dunno y, i guess it must be the harry potter book... managed to borrowed the book called "sold" but i've jz borrowed another harry potter series.. "the chamber of the secrets"! haah.. so i'll be readin that again~

finally finished the harry potter book~! well, i feel good being busy over at work.. really. wenta have lunch with one of my seniors.. angie.. she's like those who's already 28 yet look so young! well, the guy sitting behind me.. jz gotta know he's a ABK.. american born korea? ha, mb not.. but he's actually a korean. mix parentage perhaps. i was kinda shocked.. but d more i think.. well, he does look alil korean, japanese kind. i like e way he says "oh really?! wow..." d accent n slang is soo nice.. haaz. i'm learning from him.. but he's got a loud voice.. everytime when he talk, we'll know its him.. heard he's also on contract kind n angie said he's like a gentle giant.. lolz! will tryta get a chance to talk to him den~

wenta try O'briens wraps today n tot its quite nice.. jz that i'm kinda broke though.. but well, its worth it! hope my pay's gonna come tml! *cross fingers*

haiz.. everytime i call the people.. i'll have a hard time pronouncing correctly (at times).. afraid i'll say their names wrongly n all..... pp always make me stumble by askin me questions that i wasn't prepared... i'm not dreading.. but perhaps i need more confidence.. somemore behind me sat a ABC.. make me feel worst.. in a way.. well.. i guess i really need to build up my confidence..

well, i'm looking forward to see haizad on tv tonite.. even recorded jz in case i forgotten to watch.. ha. still has a harry potter book to rush.. hafta return tml! not much time left! 200+ more pages to go..!

dunno y but i felt as if i haven't blog for long.. well, anywy work's is finally gonna begin.. the pressure is startin to come in as i've finally get my labtop. its a good (i
ve got a labtop!) n bad thing (cos tt gal had left! so now we're left to our own to start calling.) but i still needa wait for my access for the shared drive b4 i can start calling..

is it a curse of wad.. i jz feel like droppin dead now n sleep.. no, i slept kinda early yest but mb it isnt enuff.. well.. wadeva! still hafta start rushin to read d "Harry Potter: Order of the Phoenix". its really interesting to read.. i'm at some sort of the crucial part.. d only ting is that harry gets angry easily but still a nice book.. mb i deserve it.. borrowed for months n only started readin recently when my fren wanted back the book.. so now hafta rush so that i can return it on fri.

well.. rite now.. i jz hope anna's copin well over there..

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shir,30
loves ktv. shopping. movies. peace. travel. reading. fashion. nature. good food. chilli padi.
chilling out with friends. sneakers. pretty things!

motto
live life to the fullest. humility. truthful to oneself.

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Wishlist

▪ Branded handbag
▪ New shelves
▪ Hi-Fi set
▪ Revamp my room!
▪ slim down
▪ bag
▪ cam


2014
▪ Eason Concert 3/1
▪ HKG 3/13
▪ tattoo 4/17
▪ JPN 5/10
▪ Europe 11/27
▪ Branded wallet 11/27

2013
▪ Taipei 1/12
▪ Note 2 LTE 2/8
▪ BKK 4/11
▪ Aust 7/31
▪ Thai Lang
▪ track shoes

2012
▪ BJ 3/31
▪ perm my hair 4/13
▪ black watch for work Aug
▪ perm my hair 8/29
▪ Radio/cd player Sep
▪ BKK 9/28

2011
▪ Iphone 1/28
▪ Blue Wedge 2/10
▪ 1st buy trip 3/3
▪ quit my job 3/21
▪ clear deg course 3/25
▪ perm hair 4/2
▪ 张学友演唱会 8/29
▪ new job 10/3
▪ Convocation 10/21
▪ Spring clean my room in the midst!

2010
▪ havanias slim 3/12
▪ G-shock watch 3/12
▪ shaved my hair 5/1
▪ HK shopping spree 7/9
▪ casio gold watch 8/30
▪ new jeans 11/13

2009
▪ new camera 3/12
▪ new sling bag 5/1
▪ leather-strap watch 5/8
▪ handphone 5/28
▪ satin leggings 7/10
▪ QUIT MY JOB! 12/8

2008
▪ BKK 7/17
▪ new wallet 12/6
▪ black sneakers 12/24
▪ Laos 12/24

Awaiting dreams

▪ family trip
cty to go by 35
▪ Nepal/Korea/Jpn/Europe
Language to learn
▪Thai/Jap/Korean
holistic lifestyle
▪ RCIA
▪ Pilgrammage
▪ Community svc
▪ Yoga/pilates/exercise Mar'12

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