i'm really glad i'm all set to go back on the
right track. hopefully i'll not do wrong to myself.. tomorrow thr's a big mtg, right now.. i'm juz working hard in not being late... so.. i'll slowly keep improving myself.
looking forward to the
coming holiday.. hopefully i'll getta do some
travelling to mb
taiwan soon! colleague went there n keep asking me to go visit taiwan soon! went to watch interpreter and tot its only quite ok~ but it seems that aileen & fern tot its a really nice show! its good catching up with those tt i havent met for mths.. altho we din getta talk much.. but yes! its our 1st time watching movies.. n fern is gg US for
attachment! i want abercomie & fitch clothes!!!! n i hope there will be more upcoming meeting ups with others whom i din getta interact for a while..
miss poly days with all those sch mates.. all those fun we had all seemed as if it was years ago.. so far away..
thinking back to sec sch days is like even further!~ all those PE days where we'll climb the drain juz to skip to run tt extra mile, those "after prayer" session where we'll really run to queue for our nasi biryani.. those days whr we'll only eat bread.. or my favourite fish mee where i dun mind eating everyday.. prata session outside sch.. days where i'll tk bus with darling back home.. bus 82! ha, i always remember that.. home econs days where we'll just keep eating wad we cook on da spot.. n food that we cooked din taste right. n those days where i keep failing my maths.. i was soo sad that i wanna cry. those copying of chinese spellings, talking during chinese lessons and always getting caught etc etc.. those days where u guyz wouldnt dare talk to me when i jz came to sch cos u all tot i had mood swings on morning! days where we were sooo crazy about japanese dramas that i can stay up till 4am juz trying to finish up the drama within a few days and queuing up of those drama disc.. those days where we'll go bukit panjang to get those idols stuff.. those days.. it seems soo far, yet it was those days tt made my memory more treasurable... memories that i'll neva forget cos it made my teenage years more meaningful. to think our group all still contacting each other.. really glad to have u guys in my life.. esp when i tot / insisted we wouldn't contact after sec 4. thanks for making that
not becoming real.. ha.
well, i just hope each and everyone of you do
treasure those memories too, that everything that happened would make our
friendship even stronger. all of u.
thanks for making my life whole. hmmz, its just a sudden tot of things that i've always wanted to say.. i know it sounds mushy etc.. but.. dunno, just thinking back to my life.. i really felt lucky having each and every of u.. dunno~ just felt
grateful..
well, i feel that.. in
friendship, there shouldn't be competition amg each other, cos that isn't real
friendship.
friendship is not abt comparing how much flowers you received from ur partner and ur friend doesnt has it. its not abt being arrogant cos ur partner can give u things where other friend's partner cant.. its not about comparing what you got from others during your birthdays and ur friends don't. money isn't everything. it cant buy love,
friendship. its not about comparing things that u have when ur other friends dun.
friendship is all about sharing
ALL your happiness with your friends, giving them things cos u truly wanted to give them, sharing cos u really want to share.. and not having the mindset wanting them to envy you, thinking that u can afford gd stuffs and they cant.. its abt sharing your food, things, sharing even your most beloved things. things that u love so much that u din bear to use it. love, sorrow knowing that they will be there for u no matter what, even sitting there quietly just hearing u sob.. just be on the other line not speaking anything.. thats all it matters. and that no matter how much they dislike it, they will still accompany you.. to whatever place, or even do whatever things u want to do. its all about giving and sharing.. buying of same clothes or owning something together cos u'll want to share good things with ur friends! and they will know what u r thinking even before u reacts. while gifts, money may be impt.. but its all nothing but just a possession that will in time, fade.. and soon be forgotten by all. its not abt comparing.. cos that isn't real
friendship at all.. a real friend will be happy for things you have truly.. just truly happy and be sad with u when u r sad.. and if such competition ever arises.. den.. that isn't real
friendship at all~ it isnt~ cos real friends doesnt compare.. well, at least not in this way.
don't keep having the tot of thinking that u're being neglected by friends when you aren't even doing anything to keep that friendship going... dun blame others for all those.. think if u have done enough as friends anot.. and if you dint.. den dont blame others for treating you like this, cos you might be just treating them the same way they treat u. that's life.. admit it~ so mb u shld start doing something about it. always check on ur own actions before assuming its the other parties wrong.
but one thing i'll hope is that if i ever make such mistakes in my life.. if i'm ever not myself... pls let me know.. cos that's what friends are for right? making each other betta in life..
life is never easy.. but do not give up no matter wad comes your way
what i've become, 10:13 PM.
right track
yes.. i'm building back my confidence.. sthg that colin told me was
"all these 'setbacks' are suppose to make u stronger.. not pull u down". well, i think its soo true.. i'm still doing well at the mo'. ya, i muz really start saving up.. to study. i wouldn't want to be a receptionist forever.. right?
ya, basically right now.. i thank all who stood by me to hear all my doubts and complains, my worries and giving me advices.. seriously.. i'm afraid, tts y its making me alil paranoid.. uptight and yes, it makes me think too much! but well, i shld jz learn to relax and enjoy the mo'. just like all have said..
what i've become, 9:50 AM.
building up
oh man.. i'm like soo dunno wad's gg wrong. getting the very
short-term memory. and worst of all, i seemed to be
really REALLY careless in everything i do.
wad's wrong with me?! am i giving myself too much pressure on doing well?! i really dunno. but i really do needa do something to prove that i'm not what i think.. i need to prove to myself... that i'm not really
that carelesssssssss! ok.. i really needa do sth on it!
tomorrow will be a betta day! i miss my gal mates..
what i've become, 11:31 PM.
oh gosh.. wad's wrong with me?!
fridayhmmz.. i overlooked some stuff and bought the wrong quantity of the printer inks for my big big boss. well.. i think he's pretty angry because of that.. hmmz.. and there seems to be some miscommunication.. aiiz.. he thinks i wasn't doing my stuff efficiently and actually in between there was some small stuff cropped up, so i dint inform him abt it, which i tot was a small matter.. thats why. nvm~ guess nxt time i'll just tell wadeva that happens be it a small or big problem.
saturdaywow.. i fell in love with subaru legacy car.... d driving was like soo smooth, i jz wanna slp in it. ha. ok, mb i shld juz go get my license sooooon. i was like wearing only a shorts and a t over at terry's bday. seriously was a slip of mind that i was celebrating on that night so wad i brought was only a t and shorts. aywy, the sentosa trip wasnt to the beach but a treasure hunt.. was being cheated! but i guess i still like sentosa~ heez, somehow. realise i've got lotsa things to comments recently. maybe i should just keep my mouth shut and give peace to my surrounding people.. maybe.
what i've become, 10:48 AM.
ooops
hmmz, been rather busy with work this few days. dont really have time to breathe! but i'm glad cos time passes fast over here unlike in my old company.. was basically trying to waste time away.. more learning opportunities over here too! =)
emily wanted to intro me to work at her friend's bridal shop where i can learn alot on designing etc. i'm really tempted, but.. i'm still learning over at my place.. and i'm enjoyin my work now at the mo', so i guess unless they do need people next time.. i doubt i'm able to work and learn those skills right now. if only can do those fen sheng shu.. ha. seriously i dun mind.. its really tempting. but my resume will look ugly by leaving this company for only a mth... nvm.. since i stil enjoy working over at this current pl.. everything is fine.. heez.
where's my garfield?
what i've become, 9:37 AM.
busy

my
star for the day. i love his "smug" look. this boy shld thk his aunt for contributing this pic to me... thks
angela aunty! =)
what i've become, 11:54 PM.
star of the day
hmmz, work's quite boring this few days. and i'm especially sleepy after lunch. nothing much to update seriously, other den.. well, not doing much practise for jap.. not doing enuff of this and that.
trying to learn some simple sentences from my korean colleague.. hopefully can learn more before he leaves! hah. it mite be time to have a chge of hairstyle..
sleeping is a luxury.
what i've become, 2:15 PM.
another friday of the week